Discouragement & Prayer

Written by Kimberly Hartwell

I didn't realize the discouragement of waiting would so quickly hit us. But I'll have to be honest - it brought me to tears today. Let me vent, or at least explain.

We have heard that the initial application is a rather easy process (with friends receiving calls within 72 hours with an 'yes, let's go foreward'). Unfortunately, we mailed in the application on October 7 and today, October 29, we still are not approved. Apparently when bringing our information to social services our adoption agency was told that they would not consider our medical coverage sufficient for our adopted children. And that we would have to obtain coverage for them before they entered our home, even suggesting finding insurance potentially for 2 people we don't know with no names, ages, genders to show. You can imagine the challenge that brings. I've researched all week, called several agencies, reviewed policies, federal government regulations and still we are not accepted. Is there anyone out there that might have suggestions or advice? Our adoption agency just in the last week has 2 other families in the same situation so they are now are trying to help us out.

But I am discouraged. I'm discouraged that we worked on things ahead of time to have everything in order and almost a month later, we are still not moving forward. I'm discouraged that they won't let us move forward even though we don't have to have the coverage for several months. I'm discouraged that I don't know where next to look and what to do.

And yet, just a month ago I knew that we would have trials and that this would be a stretching time as we 'wait' through this process. So I am asking for prayer. I am asking that you would pray with us that we would find just the right plan, the right information, the right contact. That we would have the wisdom of God - He says that if we ask for wisdom, "He will give to all men liberally".

So that is what I'm asking for. Thank you for letting me share my frustration. And thank you for your prayers. We need His wisdom.